So we moved on to the current cycle. I decided I would NOT stress about getting pregnant. I've had so much stress with EVERYTHING in my life lately...TTC, family, money, job...that it was getting to a point of making me sick.
My doctor confirmed this when I went in for my U/S last Thursday the 16th . We did the Femara 5mg CD 3-7 again. This month when I went in, I had 2 FOLLIES on my left! Nothing on my right...we've discovered that my right ovary just isn't working like the left. We've never gotten anything off of it. But my left ovary is AWESOME! Lol! Anyway, she decided to have me do the trigger shot again, and I actually triggered 2 days earlier than last time. I didn't even bother with OPKs this time. When she came in to go over things with me she hopped up on the bed (I was in the chair) and she says, "I want you to drink and have sex all weekend!" She proceded to tell me that stress can play a major role in TTC. She told me to get some wine, and enjoy a romantic weekend with my hubby. She said she firmly believes that I will NOT get pregnant if I stay as stressed as I have been. It's not healthy for my body and it's not healthy for my soul. She told me what I needed to hear...it was time to stop trying to fix everything, control everything, and just go with the flow.
And that's what I did. I followed her directions (hubby had zero complaints lol!) After I knew I had ovulated, I stopped thinking about TTC completely. I left it in God's hands. I'm currently 7 days past my trigger, so I'm probably about 4-6 days past ovulation. I'm noticing some strange things going on with my body, but I refuse to dwell on them...for now. My fingers are crossed but I'm not going to let my hopes get built up. If it happens, it happens...I have to leave it up to the Powers That Be.
BUUUTTTT...if I'm still having these "strange" things going on with my body at the end of the weekend, I'll be posting all about them here! Cautiously optimistic...that's the name of the game.
Oh my goodness, I didn't realize how long it had been since I last blogged! First off, still not preggers. I got my hopes up last cycle and when I was let down...once again...I had to take a break from blogging and TTC forums. Now that I'm back in the "two week wait" once again, I figure now is a good time to bring you all up to speed.
After my HSG and my Femara 5mg on CDs 3-7, I had an U/S on CD 12 to see if we had any follies. There was a big BEAUTIFUL one on my left side. I also had a "triple stripe lining" for the first time! I had never heard of it but apparently, according to my doctor, it's the most PERFECT lining...exactly what they want to see while TTC! My doctor decided since my follie was so big and everything looked wonderful, she wanted me to take an Ovidrel shot that would "trigger" my ovulation in case my body wouldn't do it on it's own. She told me to take the shot if I didn't have a positive OPK by the next morning. I went home and tested that afternoon and had a big +++++! First time I'd gotten such a clear positive on an OPK. Even though I was ovulating on my own, I took the trigger shot just to give myself an extra little push. I sat back and waited for my BFP two weeks later...and it never came.
I had gotten so hopeful and here was yet ANOTHER let down. I broke down and cried my eyes out and got pissed and broke things and told DH I didn't want to do it any more. I couldn't take any more disappointments. I literally felt as if I had hit a brick wall. Every fiber in my body was exhausted, but every fiber also wanted to keep going. The stubborn Irish girl in me came out and we decided to move on, put that failed cycle in the past, and prepare for the next one...
